For many months, and in some cases years, I have bemoaned and complained about my lack of focus and drive and productivity. I can feel the push to create and share but at times, it seems stifled. What is causing this blockage, this breakdown, in the flow of my mind and heart?

Romans 8:28 tells us, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”

I thinking I am spreading myself too thin, because I am jumping from thing to thing to thing…looking for what I want, or in an extremely self-delusional way, what I think I need. I am going to spend this next year in a journey of self-discovery. I am not looking for what I want or need. I am going to look for what God wants and, without the added sense of ego what needs from me.

I have been called “according to His purpose” (emphasis and edit mine) and not my own. It should be about Him and not about me. It is my calling, but it is not my message. We confuse the fact that because the message is shared with us that we think we own it. It is simply not true. The message, the truth, the calling, the vision, the direction, they all belong to God and He through His grace shares it with us.

God, make me into what you want me to be!

Soli Deo Gloria!